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April 22nd, 2002. - 1:44 a.m.
Here we are again.
Depressing things: -ugliness -parting/leaving -a grotesquely mismatched outfit -the celebration of events with noncommittal food -an inability to spell words common to the English language -the realization that fantasy can only remain unreal -a lack of comfort/security -bouffant hair -bad jokes (particularly if one is utterly unamused to being with) -an anticipated event that does not occur -broken promises -boredom -ugly shoes -stupidity/ignorance -lacking in direction -sanctimoniousness -electronic devices that fail to work -loveless parents -too much sleep -too little sleep -dieting (others of course, I never diet) -idleness -an unpleasant meal -guilt (particularly guilt piled on by family members) -the understanding that one would have to have unattractive friends if one were also unattractive -badly designed objects -insatiable cravings -having to work when one has no drive to do so -remaining in society when one has grown much too tired -lust -unprovoked hostility -frustration -reminders of past pains when one is caught unaware -lack of self realization -material pursuits -silliness -an inability to find beauty -anger -false accusations -people so blinded by gain, that they fail to notice that I want nothing in return -a lack of honesty -uncommunicativeness -those whom insist on pretending they understand A small circular incision in the left wrist, and wind out the vein, with thumb and forefinger, into ball, like yarn. Ebony needles. Knit into a dress secured by strands of hair. All the worry and malaise and strife. Worn to shelter from the elements. Keep the body warm. And the arms from rotting off. �I�m so bored of cowards, who say what they want, then they can�t handle.� N.
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